Six months.

It's been six months since I last posted. So much has happened. So much is happening. I'll tell you more. In time. The last thing I wrote about that was so heavy on my heart has resolved itself. My Mom. She lives in the next town over from me now. Shocking isn't it? That something can come that full circle? It did! I love knowing shes that close. I don't see her everday and thats okay, but she's there. Chris is unemployed AGAIN. That has not made our lives easy. We are surviving. The preschool inhouse is still going VERY well. I'm happy with that situation. I'm blessed by the parents that are trusting me with their kids. I'm blessed my children, my friends. So much to say....I'll say it in time.

WOW!!

It's been over a month since I last posted an update. I guess that's my blog sabatical! There has been so much going on. I'll update this weekend, I promise!! As for this moment, I don't have time!! I'm trying to get my kiddos out the door for DONUT Saturday. This is our tradition and Daddy is working today, so I have to take over. I'm going out of town tonight for a "mental break" from my life. I'll return Sunday night....

Happy Easter!

Happy Easter to all! It's been a pretty uneventful day around here....I cooked lunch. A traditional Easter feast....Ham, mashed potatoes, corn, Mac and cheese, and rolls...Skipped the salad...with....my ex-husband and kids. Chris had to work and Darin is family, so he came over and enjoyed lunch with us....

I have a plethora of things to say. I want to tell you about BFW and how awesome it truly was. I want to tell you how sad I am that I still have not talked to my Mom and how this is weighing sooo heavily on my chest, almost like someone standing on top of it to the point that I can't breath...but, I'm trying to clean and get my work done today in anticiptation of another great week. Everything is going well here as far as my little preschool goes. Looks like I will continue it for the time being...

And so I leave you for now....

He has risen!!!

Still no word....

I've sent my apology to my Mom, I emailed it because she won't take my calls to hear it person to person. I have texted her numerous times, including today after a call from my brother telling me she had quit her new job in Houston telling her I was worried about her and to please call me and that I loved her. Chris has now told me to lay off. He told me she obviously needs time. The weird thing is, normally this would have me all in a tizzy....and I'm good. I'm calm. I miss her. So much. I really do. But, I know that she loves me too much and my kids too much to allow this to go on forever. Next weekend is Easter. I guess she won't be coming. I'm sad, but moving forward.

This weekend is my BFW. (Best Friends Weekend). You may recall my trip last year with Kathryn (Khaki) to Canton. I am so excited that this is becoming an annual event...We're looking forward to low key dinners, pedicures, movies, book stores, no kids (sorry-true), no husbands and each other! She is one of my oldest friends....I know I've told the story before, but she has been my friend since 1994. Freshman year at ETSU! She is amazing. And we, for the most part were polar opposites in college. As we have aged, I think that we have a lot more in common than we did then, but she is my rock. I can call her in the middle of the night and she will give me awesome advice. OR I may not talk to her for weeks and when she calls, it's like I talked to her minutes before. We've been through a bunch of crap together. Too much crap. But, we've done it together and I am a better person for having her in my life. I am super duper excited about this weekend. So, Canton carts are out and ready to roll!!

Pray for me. All of your messages on Facebook, texts, email have really helped me get through this with my Mom. I'm sad, but I know it will all work out.

~Buffy

Mom versus Dad....

Okay, I screwed up. Big time. This will include a huge back story of which the details may be a little bit out of order. I was born to a Mom and a Dad. They had me when they were both 20. (Had gotten married at 18). I saw my Dad until I was 5. At which time, I was adopted by my stepfather who raised me until he and my Mom were divorced when I was a sophomore in high school. At this point, my REAL DAD came back into our lives and my parents tried to reconcile. Didn't work. Back to California my Dad went. My Mom then met my stepdad that she was married to until a few years ago and is now living with again, but not married to. I think. Anyway....a few years back my Dad contacted me again. We had been in and out of touch for years. Actually for a lot of different reasons, my anger, his absence just because, etc. So, we finally reconnected after the birth of my son and things have been going well since. Well, except that I was lying to my Mom the entire time about the relationship. I was "protecting" her. I didn't want her to think I loved her any less because I loved my father. Crazy, I know. She didn't know I went to California for 14 days to see my Dad. My children were told to sssshhhhhh...keep quiet. (I know!! I'm an awful mother). My kids LOVE my Dad. He is the best "Grandpal." I didn't want her to be hurt.

Well, this Saturday I sent a picture of Maddy to my Mom and my Dad in the SAME TEXT!! Somehow my Dad replied to all with the comment of...Kitty Kat (Maddy's nickname) looks like you did at that age and a perfect mix of you and your Mom. A sweet comment. But, my Mom somehow wasn't impressed. So, she forwarded me his message...as if to say....I know. She will now not return my texts, phone calls, Macy's phone calls, etc. I have decided that she will need time to deal with this. I cannot apologize for loving my Dad any longer. I love him. I didn't pick him...she did. I'm sorry that she is hurt by him. I'm sorry that he screwed up. But, he's my Dad. And that's obviously not changing.

So, that's the story...any advice???

The bad KAT!

This cute little girl is the reason that I'm going gray at 33.



She is also the reason Chris is going bald at 33.



Because as cute as she is and as much as everyone ooohhhsss and awwwwwwwss over her...she will give Chris and I a run for our money more than all our kids combined!! She is something else. And we love her...very, very, very much. She is also the reason I will never...I repeat never...have another child. If she had been my first she would have been my last!!!

Trust and knowing who your friends are....

I have always been "green." So green that in high school my boyfriend referred to someone else as green and I asked what that meant. I am naive to a fault. Sometimes I think it is a great feature to have and other times I think it is a fault. I found out today by accident that since December I was being lied to by three people that I had the utmost respect for and confidence in. The type of people that "had my back." When actually, the whole time they were undermining me. I don't get it. As much as I am moving forward with my life, it's hard not to reflect and think about what I could have done, what I should have done....etc, etc. With all of that being said, I am happier than I have been in years. I am so good. I love my kids. I even love my husband a little more these days. I feel "carefree." In the last two weeks Chris and I have talked more, laughed more, spent more time together...

Last weekend was our trip to Houston. This weekend our friends the Mann's stayed with us two nights. We ate out and had a great time!! I love Misty. We can't wait for the Summer to come so we can head to Paris and swim with the kids!

In closing, I really want everyone to know that I am so grateful for my friends. I have better friends than I ever knew could exist. Friends that really do "have my back." Without naming real names....The B's, The G's, The D's, The S's, The S's, The S's, The E's, The S's, The T's, The M's and the B's. These families and friends have rallied around me like I never expected. They have loved me, they have helped me, they are so supportive. I am beyond blessed!!

My fellow blog sister....

Corey asked me to post a link to her site.....She is an inspiration to all who know her and to those who think they do!! :) She is one of my favorite people!!! She rocks!!

Hope you can help her out...I will be!!

Hhhmmmm....

So much to say. I went to see my Mom this weekend. We had the best time. Lots of bargain shopping...lots of laughing.

Started my Monday out with a very happy disposition and then I got an email that upset me. I love email. I would rather use email. But, sometimes it just sucks. I can't tell whether this email intended to sound as ugly as it did, so I had a friend read it. She said....delete it. That person is not your friend. Which makes me sad. Very sad. I could explain and explain, but I just want to move on. So, I am.

I'll post some pictures of my kids later. We are gearing up for a big night of Dancing with the Stars. I didn't watch last season, but I'm excited about this seasons cast....AND now I have the time to watch it, which is even better.

Have a great week. I'll try to post pics tomorrow!!

Fancy Nancy....

Macy's school has this awesome day every year where the kids dress as their favorite book characters....

This year she chose...Fancy Nancy....Another one of my favorites was Choclatina...She's so silly!!!

No words...only smiles....

Have I mentioned that I have the MOST amazing girlfriends ever?

I gained weight!

I'm just putting it out there for the world (5 people who read this blog) to see. I gained .8 of a pound this week. That is point eight. Not quite a pound. I also ate brisket, baked beans, LOTS of potato salad, two cheeseburgers from McDonalds and a Large french fry, 3 margaritas....and I'm sure so much more than I'm remembering the past four days. My friend Shannon suggested I just write in my WW journal....BLEW IT!! Okay, so...I start over today.

And I have so much more to tell you...I'm doing GREAT. I'm happy. Clear headed. Things are going wonderfully around here.

We are all going to Houston this weekend to see my MOM. I'm excited.

Will post pictures soon of what I did this weekend!! You will be amazed!!

My week...

This week has been very trying for me. I have to say that I was definitely given the strength by God to get through it. But, I was also held up by angels here on earth. This week I made *one* of the most difficult decisions in my life by walking away from a job that I truly wanted to stay at. Unfortunately, I was forced to leave due to things I could no longer control. For years, I have felt that I needed to be strong for my family financially and hold us all together by making sure our mortgage was paid. Well, for whatever reason, Monday night I decided (Chris helped decide) that I was done. I guess God figured out how we were going to pay our mortage and I resigned from a job that was more than a job. It was my life. It was what I thought about nonstop for 7 years. I walked away on Monday and have not gone back. Don't think this was an easy decision for me. It wasn't. I agonized over it. I still am. I am sad that I will not see my kids everyday. My kids being other peoples kids. I am sad for the parents. I am sad for the teachers. But, I was carried through this week by an amazing group of friends. I could not have gotten through this without all of you. Your prayers. Your calls. Your texts. Your emails. Your thoughts. Your dropping by. Your speaking out in my behalf. Your passion. I have been blessed in the last two years with the most supportive friends I have ever had in my life. The old saying is true....you really find out who your real friends are when the chips are down....Thank you for being my true friends!! I am so blessed by each one of you individually. I will never forget what you have done for me!!

Sooo, I'm at home...cleaning and LOVING my life!!

So, everyone told me I would feel better immediately after quitting my job that had brought me such grief in the last six months. I doubted them. But, they were right!! I feel so much better. The calls from my parents have meant the world to me and my friends have rallied around me. I am going to be okay. I feel so clear headed. I hate hearing the things that are going on there. It makes me sad, but it's their reality now. Things could have been done differently. Now, it is time for the next chapter in my life....

Announcement #2

I lost.....
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2.2 pounds this week!!

Heck yeah!! I'll take that!!

Total for two weeks.......


7 pounds....


Pray for me tomorrow. Ultrasound at the hospital....Chris is going with me for "moral" support....I think he just wants to go out to eat....

Announcement #1....

I am doing announcements "backwards." But, I can't weigh in until tonights meeting....

Sooo....My big announcement....


I QUIT MY JOB. I GAVE THEM A LETTER OF RESIGNATION THAT JUST STATED THAT EFFECTIVE IMMEDIATELY I WAS RESIGNING. AND I'M SAD AND KIND OF LOST, BUT MORE THAN ANYTHING, STRESS FREE TODAY!!

Say a prayer for me. I'm going to need it.

P.S. I'll let you know how much I lost (hopefully lost) later....

Announcement tomorrow...well...two announcements.

First announcement will be how much weight I lost...will know tomorrow....

Second announcement will be the news I was going to tell you on April 1st...but figured February 24th would suffice. I can't wait until April 1st. In fact, I couldn't wait until February 24th. It happened today. I will update you tomorrow. I'm tired right now. Emotionally exhausted.

Say a little prayer for me....

Weight loss and "one" of the biggest decisions of my life...

Okay, so I lost 4.8 pounds. Can I just say 5? That would sound so much better!! But, it's actually 4.8. I was very pleased with that number....

AND I made one of the biggest decisions of my life today. I cannot share what it is on this very public blog that EVERYONE reads. (Sarcasm). But, just in case anyone really does read it...I'll make my announcement here April 1st. And no...I'm not pregnant and NO...it will NOT be an April Fools Joke...

Buffy...over and out!!! :)

Walking, to weigh or not to weigh and my week....

I have been walking. I overslept one day and felt completely guilty, but got up yesterday morning (YES!! On a Saturday) and walked. I felt great about it. 6:45 on a Saturday and I was out walking. It was cooolllddd. I then delivered flowers for my friend Shannon. That was fun. Took me back to my college days when that was my "real job." I was subpoenaed for two days in a child custody case that just about broke my heart. But, I got to miss two days of work for it, which you know I loved!! I go back to work tomorrow and I'm DREADING it. My computer got a nasty virus (well actually 320 of them) and our webmaster for the church had to work on it for me last night. It took him 4 1/2 hours to get it fixed. I'm so thankful for smart friends!! Sooo, I totally broke the rules this morning and weighed. I just could not take it anymore. I'm weighing food, eating fruit like crazy...no sugar and wanted to know if any of it was making a difference. So, I stepped on my scale at home that I have not set foot on in...um, probably years. AND by my scale it says I'm down 6 pounds. BUT, I did not compare the callibration of our scale to what I weighed on the WW scale on Tuesday. So, I really will need to wait until Tuesday to see what I actually weigh. But, I'm trying so hard. I'm loving the walking in the morning. I feel good....hope I stick with this!! Thank you for all your sweet comments and emails!! COREY!!! :)

And again...

I walked again this morning. We agreed not to walk on Saturday and Sunday. So, 5 days a week we will go. AND I did join Weight Watchers. AND I do weigh more than I did at 9 months pregnant with all my children. So depressing. And I did find out that my little coffee every morning is 9 points. But, you know what? I'm going to continue to drink it. Because as giving and unselfish as I attempt to be, there is a little part of me that thinks...I DESERVE THAT COFFEE!! So, until I deem it otherwise unfit...I will continue to drink my breakfast and obviously 1/2 my lunch. Because that's just how I roll....

I did it!!

Today, I got out of bed at 4:45...and met a friend at our local elementary school and WALKED!! Now, granted it was only a mile...but I did it. It only took us 24 minutes. (Probably less). But, we walked around our neighborhood. I was back home and in my house by 5:30. So, I'm going to take a shower and gear up for a BIG day. I have a meeting with my boss, a haircut and color scheduled, I'm going to join Weight Watchers today and I have my Key Learning Center Board Meeting tonight. UGH. Such joy in my life. I won't be back home until after 8 tonight, I'm sure. The state came for another unannounced visit yesterday. We passed with flying colors. Only one minor thing. Not a big deal at all. So, I did survive my Monday. Things to look forward to this week...OH, I got subpoenaed on a child custody case...Lucky me.

Mason Zane Hanson

Today Mason is 5! It's really so hard to believe. He was just a baby yesterday. He was so tiny when he was born and now he's a big man!! He's very tall! Mason was born about six weeks premature. He was born on the day that was to be my baby shower. I had been in and out of the hospital for about a month and they finally kept me there because of kidney stones. I would fall asleep in L&D and wake up in post-partum and wonder...did I have a baby? But, sometimes they would just move me over there to make room for mommies who were really having babies. He was so little I was afraid we needed a different car seat for him.

I know I've said it before, but I'll say it again, I never thought I would be a "boy" mom. But, I am. I love him so much. I think I tend to talk to him a little sweeter than the girls sometimes. I baby him too much. This past fall when we had the scare that he may have cancer I just couldn't even imagine my day without him. He's a good kid. I can't believe that he'll be in kindergarten this year. I love him so much. Here are some pictures of him through the past year. Some people say he looks JUST LIKE ME and others think he looks just like his Dad. I like to think he favors me just a smidge!! I'll scan a picture of me from this age and you can compare and tell me what you think. It's pretty funny.

It's February?

Is it seriously February already??? Where exactly did January go? Mason turns 5 this week. Five years ago I was laying in the hospital awaiting his arrival. He came waaaayy too early, but was really okay. I had to have surgery for kidney stones and was living a pretty miserable existence in that hospital bed. But, believing that was five years ago is hard.... Now he can write his name, run really, really fast and make me laugh. He gives the best hugs and I love him so, so, so much. He's my little man. He loves legos, hot wheels and his train track. He also loves soccer. (Too bad he can't play this season--doctors orders).

So, we're doing the big party at Chuck E. Cheese. ICK. It's a recipe for disaster for me. Saturday, Noon, Crowds, Chuck E. Cheese. UGH. But, that's what he wanted and that's what we're doing for him. I hope my Mom can make it. She's still sick with the flu. He invited quite a few friends from school. He is very excited about his party. I am going to commit the ultimate sin again and order his cake. I'm just too busy this week to bake and decorate one for him.

February is a special month to me because of his birth. Otherwise, I'm not a fan of Valentines. We are going to help our friend Shannon deliver flowers for Valentine's Day, but other than that...not a big day for us.

I found out tonight I was elected back onto the PTO board for next year. Yippee. Woo Hoo. Not really. But, I did it for Macy and so I will do it for Mason. It's hard to believe that next year Macy leaves the elementary campus at the same time that Mason joins it. I'll have one at two campuses. Maddy won't be able to start for a couple years. I'm trying to figure it out in my head, but I think that for a short period I will have one at every campus...wait...maybe not. I don't know.

Have a great week. Monday through Thursday really suck for me. I feel like I'm living each week waiting for the weekend...Friday I do okay because I know the next day is Saturday. I live paycheck to paycheck and Friday to Friday...that's pretty sad, huh? I need some meaning...A reason.

My weekend...

I have had a GREAT weekend...My friend Misty texted me Friday morning wondering my plans for the weekend...clean the house, my answer. She lives in Paris. I used to babysit her kids and we went to church and played Bunco together. She recently went through a divorce and I've been there, done that and not many of our friends there have. She and I have grown so close in the last few months and I am so thankful for her. She brought the kids last night after I got off. We all had dinner at Olive Garden (all eight of us-FIVE kids)!! It was so great to see "my kids that are her kids" again. We didn't go to bed until 10:45 and were up early for donuts and coffee! We have had a great day together with our kids shopping, playing video games and laying around. And talking. And catching up. And being friends. I very rarely have friends over just to "hang out" and it was so nice to do that.

My Mom has the flu. I feel so sad for her. I wish I could be there to help her, but I'm not sure what kind of help I would be. I'm just worried about her. She was going to try to come for Mason's party this weekend, but now I'm assuming she won't.

I talked to our neighbor today. Her daughter is very bruised in the chest area. But, they found something suspicious when they did an x-ray because of the wreck. They found a mass on her thyroid. Sometimes God does things for mysterious reasons and they do not believe that they would have found that mass if not for the accident last week.

Please pray for Wesley. He went to the hospital today vomiting blood. I received a text from Kristy in a little while and they are thinking that he has an ulcer from all the medicine he has been having to take....

I guess that's it for me...Have a great Super Bowl Sunday...

25 Random Things about me.....

Okay, I got this on facebook and LOVED it....It's funny...Just a little bit about me...

1. I'm a clinique snob (yes I made up this name for myself).

2. All my kids names start with an "M"....Macy, Mason and Madylynn (wish it had been Molly, but I let Chris pick the name...so there you go).

3. I could each a cheeseburger for every meal if given the choice...except when I'm pregnant when for whatever reason I can't stand meat and become a vegetarian. Weird. I know.

4. I'm a Kappa Delta. K with an A with a P.P.A. D with an E with an L.T.A. You get the point.

5.Been married once before...big wedding in my hometown...eloped the second time to Vegas. Would recommend Vegas!! (As cliche as I know that sounds).

6. I'm best friends with my ex husband.

7. I love, love, love cupcakes. Always have, always will.

8. I was born on an island far, far away...Coronado, California, but am a Texas girl at heart.

9. I love garage sales and goodwill.

10. I love Starbucks. and yes, they do know me by name there...just like Cheers.

11. The older I get, the more I lean on my girlfriends. I love them.

12. I married Chris on the 4th of July because it's my favorite holiday.

13. I love my Mom...and my Dad.

14. I always knew I wanted to be a Mom, but didn't know how much I would love it until I had Macy. I thought I wanted to be a business woman in downtown Dallas. What the hell was I thinking?

15. I love all things preschool...well, except for the crummy parts...

16. My favorite ice cream is mint chocolate chip from Braums.

17. I love Disneyland.

18. I love my new cell phone, but am still really eyeing the iphone.

19. I love my laptop.

20. I hate traffic and crowds. Can't deal with it.

21. I don't eat seafood, but my favorite restaurant is a seafood restaurant...weird..

22. I met my husband when he interviewed me for a part time position as a server at Chili's....

23. I really like to be in MY house in my jammies.

24. I don't watch much TV.

25. I can read a People magazine front to back in a matter of hours. LOVE IT!!

And an update about my neighbor and her baby. She apparently is doing better. Chris saw them bring her home yesterday. I have not been over there to check on them yet....

Pray for our neighbor!

Chris and I never watch the local evening news, but tonight we did. The breaking story was about a car accident in Sherman. They showed the car and I immediately knew it was our neighbor. Then they described a young mother and 10 month old baby and I really knew it was her. I ran to the refrigerator to look at the birth announcement and sure enough...10 months ago...UGH. All we know is that it was really bad and that she has been airlifted with serious chest injuries. I called her mom and she answered and just said that she couldn't find them in Dallas and would have to call me back. This young lady lives with her parents. They are the most amazing people in the world. I am just sick for them right now. Please lift her up in prayer. Her name is Kaylee....I will update as I know more.

YAY!! Ice day!!!

I just have to say...God knows when I need a mental health day and delivers it in a nice little package....Ice day...husband has to work...can't call in...kids being lovely as long as I make them breakfast...it's all good. Now wrap that up in a little bow....I'm so happy today...I love my house. I love my jammas. I love my kids...I love that they love pigs in a blanket....I love that I cannot feel guilty for not leaving my house because it's impossible. Love...love....love it....

A little bit of this...a little bit of that.

I have been out of the loop since Saturday. I either got food poisoning or a stomach bug and I don't really care what the name for it is, it has been awful. Chris has been so sweet to help with the kids (and so has Macy). I had to miss church on Sunday and work yesterday. I am back at work today, but really should be home. I'm just too busy to take off.

The weather outside is frightful and I'm hoping that it ices just bad enough to cancel school tomorrow. I need another day in bed.

Please pray for my friends, Wesley and Kristy. Here is a link to their blog. He is not doing well once again and she has started a blog with all of his information and asked me to share it! http://prayersformyhusband.blogspot.com/

I guess that's all for now. I'm sure I had more to say, but I just am having trouble focusing right now. I really think I'm dehydrated....

It's Saturday!!

Yea for Saturdays!! I had a busy week. Will I ever have a post where I state, I had a really boring week? Probably not. Anyway, busy at work. Busy, busy. I was constantly in a classroom "covering" classes and rarely in my office. Which is not a good thing. I have so much paperwork to do.

I was so busy that I did not go to my "therapy" session on Thursday. And I do appreciate every one's insight into the subject. Corey-you must send me your email address. buffylhanson@yahoo.com I want to talk to you about it....personally. Cheri-Thanks for your sweet words!! Misty-Thanks for driving to Sherman to see me for my birthday and bringing Maddy's future husband with you. I love him as much as I did Stephen Paul at that age!! I'm going to be okay. I always end up okay. My best friend Kathryn described me in an email recently as a cat...she's right. I always end up on my feet. Khaki!! Thanks for my awesome birthday card. Love the cupcake flair....I started taking my medicine. He said to give it two weeks and I'll feel better. I took yesterday afternoon off. That was nice. Darin and I got to talk for a little while before Macy got home from school about next years "family" vacation....YUP. You heard right. We are all going as a "family" to Disney World. All of us. His parents, all of us, Macy gets to take a friend...It should be...um...interesting. No. Just kidding. We decided years ago to do this as a group and next year is the year. Now, we're just trying to decide on what month we'll go. He votes for March. I vote for June. So, March will probably win...

So, today is clean the house and lay around day...Thank goodness. I love Saturday!! Chris is out right now picking the kids up donuts and Mommy up coffee. He really is good to me...most days....OH...he's home...gotta look like I've been doing something productive for the last 1/2 hour and not been on the Internet. :)

SSoooooooo.....

I celebrated my 33rd birthday yesterday. No biggie. Just another day. But, my sweet husband did remember this year and had flowers sent to me from my friend Shannon's shop. My entire school somehow snuck down to the Fellowship Hall while I was working on paperwork and then called me down to the kitchen to "surprise" me and sing happy birthday to me. They even wheeled out a gigantic cake for me. So sweet!! I received lots of nice gifts and am blessed.




Yesterday, besides turning 33, I also went to the doctor. For months I have had this yucky feeling of yuck....Just yuck. No fancy words for it. A funk. Anyway, turns out I am just overstressed. Nuh-uh really? Seriously? I'm not crazy? I'm apparently not. Now, he did prescribe me some medication to help me for short term, but most importantly he wants me to go into therapy. I'm not real keen on the idea, but I'm going to go, at least once, tomorrow. We'll see how that works out for me. I'm the girls who likes to "pretend" that life is grand and I don't really like to talk about the "real" crap that is going on. Sooo, we'll see how that works out for me.

Besides that, not much of anything going on. Just a lot of work. I need a lot of rest, but that's not happening. I found out some frightful information when I stepped on the scale yesterday at the doctor, but I'll just "pretend" that wasn't "real" information either!! :)

My girlfriends....

Make me happy!!!




Make me happy!!!

Oh me oh MY!

I don't really have anything to blog about. It's Thursday. I like Thursday's. I like them because the next day is Friday and I LOVE Friday because usually that means the next day is Saturday and I can stay in my jammies all day....Except this Saturday. We need to grocery shop. That's a family affair. Chris enjoys it. He gets his own "crap basket" as I refer to it. That's where you will find the oreos, pizza, chips, cokes, etc. Not that I'm perfect or anything, but I enjoy PLANNING meals and buying food for that. I just don't like to cook it. Chris can cook it. I'm the baker. Maybe when we renovate our kitchen and it's new and improved and I don't feel claustrophobic in it, I'll cook more....maybe not....

My sweet friend who owns a local florist invited me to go to market Saturday. I have never been to "market." I have heard of "market" since I was a teenager and moved to this area. What is it? Is it a noun? Is it a verb? No clue. Anyway, I have always wanted to go. It's in Dallas. But, when she mentioned that we're talking about 10 hours of walking and collecting catalogs for stuff to order for Christmas...I changed my mind. I'm tired. I want to stay at home and clean and catch up on stuff. I need to catch up on "stuff."

I've been trying to arrange a girls night for my birthday. It's next to impossible to get all my friends from all different walks of life together for drinks these days. I have friends from all over. Denison....Sherman....Dallas....Sorority....Church....School....my friends don't match. That's okay with me. But, sometimes it just makes things odd when we all get together, so I think I will forgo the yearly grease and margaritas night at City Limits for my birthday this year. I mean, it's not like it's a big one or anything...I'm the double 3 this year. That's what I'm going to call it.

The Explorer is still in the shop. UGH. They just got to it this Monday. Should be ready Friday of this week or Monday of next week. I have such sweet friends that have helped me with transportation. I am blessed.

I guess that's all for my mish mash of a blog...sometimes I'm not sure why I even write in it. I really don't think more than 5 people are reading it....maybe I'm a good bedtime...put you to sleep blog....

Small world? Or I know a lot of people....

My favorite restaurant is Pappadeaux. Wasn't always. Chris took me there while we were dating for my birthday. It was HIS favorite restaurant that he took me to for MY birthday. Okay, I've gotten over that and found that I am IN LOVE with the Greek Salad. I don't eat anything else there except Grilled chicken and the Greek Salad, but he likes all that weird stuff. Anyway, we went there yesterday for lunch. We received a gift card from my brother for Christmas and decided to drive down for a late lunch. It's a good hour and a half from where we live.

So, we walk in and are seated right next to a couple that used to attend my church in Sherman. I stopped to say hello and visit with them. Chris said, "That is so weird that they would be sitting right next to us." It was weird. Coincidental? Well, since I don't believe in coincidences, couldn't be that. So, they finish their meal and tell us goodbye. Table gets sat again with a party of four. I don't really pay any attention...I'm too busy coloring with Maddy. They have REAL crayons at Pappadeaux!! :) I look up and immediately recognize the face sitting across from me. It is my 8th grade Health Science teacher from Paris! Now, Chris at this point doesn't believe me. He said, What's her name? I tell him. He then proceeds to swear that I think I know everyone from Paris. That she won't even know who I am and to lower my voice. Okay, so at that very moment she and I make eye contact and she calls me by my maiden name!! She knows me. She got up and came and hugged me and I introduced her to my kids. I asked about her daughter, whom I used to walk over from the elementary school when I was in junior high as a special treat for Mrs. Smith. She remembered so many details of my life. I thought that was so sweet. She asked about my Mom, etc. She then told me she was so proud of me. She told me that she was always happy to see students who had moved away and were doing great things with kids. That made me get a little teary!

Anyway, funny story...God does things sometimes that we may not understand, but I think it's so that we will take notice that he is in our lives everyday....

One day I'll tell you the extended version of meeting my friend Vegas in a Vegas bathroom and finding out that she lived two blocks from me. Coincidence? Nope, those don't exist. Everything happens for a reason....Oh, and on a side note...her name isn't Vegas. That's what we call each other because of where we met.

Have a happy week. I'm trying to!

Texas wins the Fiesta Bowl....

And it's a good thing!! I mean...our lives depend on that!

UGH! Good riddance to college football season until what August! Oh wait Buff...signing day is coming up....And then there will be the months leading up to it in debate over who is REALLY the #1 team in the country.

I mean, the amount of time that is spent on this ridiculous subject in my house...Can someone get me Mack Brown's phone number? Maybe he can pay my mortgage....

My Mommy taught me to be sarcastic...she did a good job...

Yea!! New pictures.

I bought myself a new little point and shoot to have in my purse...and because my hioty toity expensive camera that Darin gave me is broken. (NOTE to self...take it to Wolff Camera and see if it can be fixed).

Anyway, here are some fun pictures from around Christmas....and yesterday!!

Santa Came to our house!!

Mason watching the Zamboni at the mall.
Macy at Dairy Queen in Fairfield, Texas...where we stopped for a little Christmas eve treat. Just an FYI..nicest Dairy Queen I've ever been to...and I've frequented quite a few Dairy Queens!!
Maddy putting out her reindeer food. Notice how my camera was able to capture that food mid-air. Magical!!
Ah...our little cook. How cute is she? Precious!!!

P.S. Sometimes I don't like Blogger. Why can I only upload five pictures at a time. That sucks!

2009...A new year...a new start?

Okay, so in reviewing my "goals" for last year because I refuse to call them resolutions....my #1 goal was to get my butt organized...um, yeah, that didn't happen. I even read the best book to help me...It's All Too Much by Peter Walsh...Professional organizer for the TLC hit Clean Sweep. It is an amazing book. Makes complete sense. He nailed me to a T. But, the bad news is...I read it on my trip to Vegas in April...so a lot of good that did me. Should have read it while I was at home so then I would have gotten up and started to work on the things that he said to work on. But, that's the other part of the problem...I don't have time to read at home. Shit. I'm so screwed. Okay....so I think I will attempt to re-read it this weekend and then put away my Christmas things. 27 tubs of Christmas things...Chris corrected me when I told someone 17....UH, no 27. Honestly, I didn't even put it all out. Snowman missing an eye...needs to be thrown away, etc. etc. I need to learn to Throw away and NOT HOARD!! My issues are magazines...mail....wrapping paper. I LOVE wrapping paper. But, I never seem to wrap because it's faster to buy a gift bag. My life is a revolving door of buts.....

I also mentioned an interest in a marathon in 2008. Yeah, that didn't work out for me either. I did get a trainer...I did work out and then....I got really busy with school and life and fell off the working out wagon. But, I do want to get back in shape...not concerned with the amount of weight I lose, I am interested in the size and the way my jeans feel...I'm not in the worst place I've been weight wise in my life, but I'm not exactly thrilled either. So, I will begin the walking program immediately. Thanks Mrs. Incredible for being such motivation to me!! You are amazing. I would love to be able to hug you at the finish line in Disney!!! You go girl!!

Okay, next...our goal was to go to Disneyland and California in 2008 and that we did...And it was amazing. The trip of a lifetime. It was great for our family. I will remember it forever.

Okay, so this year...Here's what I have put together. I want to.

1) Work on me. That includes but it is not limited to...my weight, my relationship with God, my relationship with myself. More time for Buff. OH, and for those of you that care, I have called a local physician and have a consultation scheduled for MY BIRTHDAY. I need to get my emotions under control, my anxiety, my (what I believe to be ADD) under control....So, anti-depressants...the gift that just keeps on giving...hahahaa!! That's funny.

2) Spend MORE TIME with MY children. I miss my kids. Yes, two of them go to work with me everyday, but I honestly hide from them all day so they don't get the "I wants".

3) Rethink my career path...seriously.

4) Work on the house. (I think that was a goal last year too..) Didn't happen.

5) ORGANIZE MY LIFE. I think you can go back to #1 on this one, but just in case....

Okay...so that's it. I guess. I've had a rough week. I know, I know...what's new right? I first felt God nudging me in a different direction...now I think it's his foot kicking my butt in a new one....Maybe that's just my translation of the situation...but whatever.

I'll keep you updated...