Not that anyone really cares...BUT

Here's the lowdown on the last 9 days of my life....

Tuesday Jan. 22. Um, can't remember. Oh, I did almost have a wreck. The roads were icy. YUCKY!
Wednesday Jan. 23. Um, can't remember.
Thursday Jan. 24, Um, still can't remember.
Friday, Jan. 25. I remember!! Spent the morning working on Cinco de Mayo fundraiser stuff for the school. Went to Target and spent way too much money, but had fun doing it!! Lunch at Cheddars with Nicole. YUMMY!! Had to fire an employee. That sucked. I'm not good at that. Do you get good at that? I mean, does it ever become easier? It made me sad. And everyone that knows me well, knows that I'm a crier. It was sad. Can't remember what I did Friday night. FINALLY paid off Chris' truck on Friday. That was great! Oh, I remember what I did Friday night. We FINALLY implemented a Parents Nite Out at the church. Guess who worked it? Chris and I! Just like the old days. Chris and I don't get to go out, we babysit everyone elses kids. But, we had fun doing it!!
Saturday Jan. 26. We spent the day in Dallas. We went to Mardel (ever been there? Coolest store) and I bought curriculum books for the next three months. We had lunch with my brother and my Mom. It was so cool! Jake and I agreed on Cheddars for lunch. How funny that we had both eaten there the day before. Anyway, when I got to the table my Mom had four cute, different cupcake gift bags overfilling with cupcake presents. It was a cupcake themed birthday and I loved every second of opening the gifts. I got cupcake plates, bowls, cups, scrapbook stuff, pencils, chocolate. You name it! It was fun and I was spoiled. Chris and I and the kids headed to Frisco. The mall was a BEATING. It was like Christmas time. ICK. Have I ever told you that crowds and I don't get along. It was not fun. So, we get back at 6:30 p.m. I was back out of the house in my new cute Levis and at City Limits by 7:00 for my girls only birthday party. It was spectacular. So, I get there and turn my blinker on for the front parking space. Score!! Great parking place. So, some lady walks into the space as I'm turning into it and tells me that she's "saving" the spot. Seriously? Are you kidding me? I don't think so. It was pure drama. So, all these girls are standing outside the door and NONE of my friends have arrived yet. Great. Well, I'm not walking in there without some backup. They were all skinny little things in cut off shorts and tank tops. Did I mention it was 45 degrees outside. They were me 15 years ago. So, my friends get there and we decided to eat appetizers for dinner. Yummy. I actually was able to consume two margaritas and they were fantastic. They got me a birthday cake with 32 candles on it. It was just fun. Pure fun. We were home by 10:30. I'm old.
Sunday, Jan. 27. Church. Laundry. Cleaned the pantry. Grocery shopping. Woo Hoo!
Monday, Jan. 28. Can't remember.
Tuesday, Jan. 29. Church Council. 14 hour day at work.
Wednesday Jan. 30. 14 hour day at work.
Thursday, Jan. 31. Not a great day AT ALL. Drama at school. Came home by 3. I have had enough and can't wait for a "jamma" Saturday....Counting down. Tomorrow's a funeral at the church. It's at 2. Car pool at 2:15. Mass chaos, I'm sure. Something to look forward to.

My battery on my laptop is about to die, I must go for now....

WOW!!

It's been over a week since I've written in my blog. So much to write, so few hours!! I will catch you up this week!! I've had a lot of meetings, events, etc. But, I promise I'll fill you in soon! :) Buffy

He really did forget.

Okay, he forgot. I reminded him when he called to tell me he was on his way home from work. I was not nice about it. He hung up on me. It took him 2 1/2 hours to get home. He brought home roses. (Didn't make it better). ANYWAY, I think that what I need to remember is that I have such high expectations and I need to lower them a tad. I used to have this amazing boyfriend who sent flowers "just because." That would be nice. But, we have been married going on six years and I guess that's just what happens. I need to move on from it.

We are going to "celebrate" this weekend with my Mom. I have not seen her since Christmas and I miss her. So, we're going to go and do "our" favorite things that would include Half Price Books, Goodwill, Pappadeaux Greek Salad, Ikea, you know, good stuff!! We're so nerdy!

Chris and I have started planning the Disney trip. I don't know how much to allot for each day as far as spending money goes. We have our plane tickets planned, we know how much our Park Hoppers are going to be for Disney, Sea World, the Zoo, Universal Studios, Legoland, etc. But, how much do we put away for each day at these places? $500.00? For food, souvenirs, etc. So, all you people that have gone...HELP!!

They say it's my birthday....

Too bad no one reminded my husband of that. Pretty sad when my EX-husband remembers. Now, Chris is at work right now. But, he didn't mention it this morning, he didn't mention it when I just called him. I'm sorry, but that pretty much just pisses me off. Maybe he'll say something when he gets home. Maybe he'll say something when my cell phone rings and sings, "Happy Birthday Darlin." Maybe not. I don't know why after six years I'm surprised, just pissed. I'll let you know later if her remembered. It just baffles me how "Thee cupcake queen" who loves everyone elses birthday so much hates her own. My day always just sucks. Sorry, but it does. I've never had a remarkable-this is the best day ever-kind of birthday. Now, I will mention that last year my coworkers at the Neurology Clinic all pitched in and bought me a Kitchen Aide Mixer and that was the best, most thoughtful gift I have ever been given. Anyway.....We shall see what the day holds.

I'm rested!

It's been a long week. Will there ever be a week where I don't say or at least think that? I wonder???

When I got off yesterday I drove Macy to meet her Daddy in McKinney. He's still not up to driving long distances. He sees and orthopedic physician tomorrow. They think he has a dislocation now. Four weeks later...they have decided now to send him to the orthopedic surgeon. Anyway, I came home and Chris was in bed. He did not have a headache, he was just tired. So, I fed the kids, got them settled and went to lay down with him about 7. I woke up at 5:30 like always, but made myself go back to bed until after 8. So, needless to say...I am now rested. Chris is off today. I went to the church for a few hours for a planning session. We hit up Albertson's and Wal Mart. The kids are now napping. It's quiet. Aaaaaahhhhhh...quiet.

Tomorrow is my 32nd birthday. WOW!! That sounds so old. I feel like so much of my life has been wasted on things that I should have done and haven't. I need to get on those things PRONTO!! I would love to have a girls night out next weekend. Still trying to put together plans for that.

My friend Cheri and her little boy Tate are home from Houston. His pacemaker insertion when successfully! YEA TATE!

Exhaustion is setting in.

Today was another exhausting day. My phone rang at 11 p.m. last night. It was Macy's friends mom. Her dad was in the hospital. He was having heart attack. So, I made another run to the ER to pick her up. She is such a sweet girl. She was scared. But, she needed a good nights rest. I'm glad her Mom called. I like when I say, "Let me know if you need anything" and then people do. I like people that just ask. So, sweet Katie came and climbed into bed with Macy. I was up by 5 this morning to finish my tapes. Then I had to write notes for Katie. She didn't have her backpack, homework, clothes, etc. Thank goodness her and Macy at the same size. Turns out...it wasn't a heart attack. Gallbladder attack. (Which I can say from experience feels pretty stinking crummy!!)

I had an emotional day at work today. My favorite "old man" died. He was in his 90's. I sat next to him at Lion's Club on Wednesdays. He had a blackberry!! He was cool. He had the coolest card that said he was "retired." Just TIRED!! He was funny. He saw smart. I was floored by his death. That's what I was greeted with at the door, the news of his death.

I cleaned upstairs today. My office is about clean (THANK YOU BRENDA)!! I can see a desk and the floor!! I feel like so much happened today, I can't even put it into words. Maybe when I'm not tired I can.

Mason's hand is better. His "bubble" popped. It's 10 times better than I expected.

Chris made it a whole day today without a migraine! Praise GOD!

Today is my high school sweethearts birthday. Isn't that weird that I remembered that today when I wrote the date? Bizarre! I met him in 1990 and 18 years later I remember his birthday! My birthday is this weekend. No plans. I'm saving that for next weekend!! I want a night out with my girlfriends. I need a night out. I'm even fine with no "beverages." Load me up on a good coffee and greasy french fries and let's call it a night!!

Well, I think I'm going to crawl into bed with my husband while there isn't a child there. Somehow last night I ended up in Maddy's toddler bed for 5 hours. That was a killer on the back today!!

Please continue to pray for Tate Lewis! He is doing well. Out of ICU. They had to insert a chest tube and that's scary stuff. My friend Cheri is so gifted at making these adorable little videos. She is so strong and I love hearing her laughter on the tape. I miss her!! CHERI-I MISS YOU!!

4 days, 2 ER visits...

Second week of January-4 days, 2 ER visits. Is this how it's going to be? I don't mean to complain, but SERIOUSLY! I need a break. It started on Wednesday. Normal day. Finished at the church about six. I called Chris on my way to my Children's Museum Board meeting. He had a migraine. He said he was fine and had taken his medicine and that I didn't need to come home. So I went ahead and went to the museum. I was there less than five minutes and Macy called concerned about her Topher. I told her that he was fine and that I would be home in less than an hour. Less than a minute after that phone call Chris called from his cell phone. He had collapsed in the bathroom floor. I flew out of there. Thank goodness for good friends. I was able to drop my kids off down the street and get him in the car and to the ER. It was the worst migraine of his life. It was painful to watch. He was crying and banging his head on the window. It was scary. So, we got to the ER. They were helpful and prompt. He got two shots in his rump and got the giggles. It would have been funny if I weren't so tired and worried. The doctor explained that his migraines are also considered "suicide migraines." They are so bad that sometimes people commit suicide from them. Thankfully, I have an "in" with the neurologists in town and was able to get him in to the neurologist on Friday. He is now on a preventative medicine, an abortive therapy for the migraine, Phenergan for nausea, Stadol for major pain and a steroid for 7 days. But, I think he's going to be okay now. So fast forward to tonight. Chris and I were in the living room and the kids were playing in their room. (We thought). NOPE! Maddy had plugged in the iron in our bedroom floor and Mason touched it with his right hand. So, his palm was severely burnt. He went into shock. So, out the door to the ER I headed again with the other "man" in my life. He was a mess!! It broke my heart. By the end of it, and a little Lortab, he had the giggles. He's laying at the end of the couch with me right now. He has a second degree burn and we're just going to have to "doctor" it for a few weeks. Poor little guy. Thank goodness tonight for M&M's from Heather's shower, a new Pez dispenser shaped like a football with the Longhorn label and the 2008 Lakeshore catalog. I would not have survived our ER visit without any of them!! It kept him distracted!! Ever see One Fine Day with Michelle Pheiffer? That's my purse. I can do anything with that purse full of tricks!!

In between our ER visits, life has been relatively good. Thursday night I headed to my first Denison Bunco. It was fun. We didn't play Bunco, but it was A LOT of fun. We had an awesome dinner and even better conversation. We laughed so much and so hard that my face hurt. That's the sign of some good times. We made the decision to walk the Race for the Cure 3 day Breast cancer event in November together. We're walking from Dallas to Fort Worth. We are doing it to honor our friend Dawn who is battling her third bout of breast cancer. She is Stage 4. But, let me tell you something about her. She is AMAZING!! She is not a "poor me" kind of gal. She is fighting this. She is mouthy and strong and hilarious. I LOVE her so much!! Her honesty is beautiful! Her dream is to meet Ellen DeGeneres. Any ideas on how we can hook her up with that??? AND we need a team name...we're looking for suggestions. Dawn's.....????? enter name here. Funny story..we had our palms read last month together. I'm not really into this, but it was sooo interesting. Well, Dawn had a "good" reading. Her life line is long and it made a difference to her to hear it. She said that since then, she has turned over a new leaf in her life. As she puts it, "She is wearing her fake book again and wearing lip gloss." She's so funny. And happy and beautiful. But, more than anything FUNNY!! I bought her crayons for Christmas because she is a fellow crayon lover. I LOVE CRAYONS!! She wrote me a thank you note today in crayons and drew me a picture of us together!! How cute and witty is that???


Today (Saturday) we took Macy to see her Daddy. He still isn't up to par, but she missed him and he missed her. We spent some time at Toys R Us. I got to look around Sam Moon, we had an overpriced lunch at Steak and Shake (LOVE IT) and then we headed home. Today was Heathers shower. It was very nice. She got a ton of clothes and 4 monitors. Ha! She looked so pretty. I can't wait to meet Jaxon! Isn't that the cutest name? She is going to be a great Mommy!

Tomorrow is church and me working on tapes. I have six to get done by Monday. So, we shall see!!

Here's hoping we have no more ER visits for awhile. Mason is going to be on Lortab for a few days. Poor kiddo. Chris only had one headache today, which is good!! Please keep us in your prayers. But, more importantly, please remember my friend Cheri and her son Tate as he undergoes heart surgery on Tuesday!!

Tates Care page..

Whoops...Didn't hit copy. Here's a link to Tate's webpage. Please lift him and my sweet friend Cheri up in your prayers...

http://www.caringbridge.org/tx/tate/

Today was the day...

That I decided I was done being run over. I'm done. I'm done with my sister thinking that the world revolves around her but claim that I think it revolves around me. I'm devastated that I only have one sister and I no longer will allow her to be involved in my life. I'm done. I'm officially, done. I have not seen her since last New Years. I have not spoken to her since January 19th of last year on my nieces birthday. Didn't hear from her on my birthday, didn't hear from her on my kids birthday, Thanksgiving, Christmas, etc. And then her husband to be (#4 for her) decided that it would be in his best interest to send my mother and I an ugly email. So, I decided to be a big girl and pray and seriously think about what I wanted to say to her. And then came today, when she decided to send me a "friend request" on Myspace. So, I sent her an email explaining to her that she needed to give me some time to calm down and that when I decided that I was ready to discuss the problems with our family and relationship that we could get together in person and talk. Her response....NOT nice. I'm devastated. I'm sad. I got the email at work and immediately went into instant meltdown. I had to sit at my desk for 2 hours before I was okay to drive. It's like a death to me. I lost my sister today. I'm done.

I do have to say that I had a very nice conversation with an old acquaintance this afternoon during my meltdown and she made me feel so much better. She and I actually worked together at our first job in Paris. (Go Super One)!! She ended up calling me to see if we had an afterschool program back in November and we ended up figuring out that we had known each other for over 15 years!! CRAZINESS! She is living in Sherman now and it was so nice to have a conversation with her!!

So, I have that headache that you get after you cry. I have that exhaustion that you have after you cry. I guess it is what it is. I'm just so angry and sad and pissed!!

Okay, so now I have vented.

I would like to ask that all my "readers" out there (all 5 of you) please remember my dear sweet friend Cheri Lewis and her family and especially her son Tate as he undergoes a pacemaker implantation at the end of this week in Houston at Texas Children's Hospital. She has been my friend for about eight years and I love her so. I love her kids. Just lift her up in your prayers!! Lift Tate up as he undergoes this very important surgery! Tate is 5 years old. Here is a link to his care page. Cheri is my friend that I first mentioned as my inspiration for this page!!

I'll be in touch soon. This is a busy week for me. Children's museum board meeting tomorrow (check out the museum if you haven't already), BUNCO (YEAH!!!) Thursday, nothing Friday and baby shower on Friday!! Yippee!!

Headaches.

Literally and figuratively. Why oh why do they exist? I have the WORST headache right now. Chris is currently in a really bad migraine cluster. (His last one was in Dec/Jan. of 2003/2004 when I was in and out of the hospital during my pregnancy with Mason. These are debilitating headaches. It hurts me to see him in so much pain. The kids who vandalized my playground showed up on Friday to clean up their mess. That's the good news. Bad news is that the fence around the new firehouse that just got remodeled as a beautiful home....well, there fence has these two lovely letters written all over it...f.....u......What is wrong with these kids? Do we blame them? Do we blame society? Do we blame their parents. I wish a hug from Mrs. Buffy would make it better, but I think it's too late. I have a couple kids in my program that it would work on....They just need to be loved and so I love the unlovables. But, these kids don't care. Another headache.....UGH!

Here's a recap on my weekend....cooked again at the school on Friday. Went to Target and Hobby Lobby for three hours without kids! Yipee. Hit up the 75% and 80% off Christmas sales. LOVE THOSE!! I have decided that next year I will add a tree to my collection--a cupcake tree. How cute will that be. Macy and I have found over 40 new cupcake ornaments in the last couple days at sales. It's so fun "hunting" for them. We decided we are rescuing them. We can't bear to leave them there on the shelves all alone!!

Came home to a clean house! Thanks Sharon! I baked a three tiered wedding cake. Saturday morning-woke up and decorated the wedding cake. Delivered that and then decided that I didn't want to stay in my house all day with all three kids so, I loaded them up in the car and headed out to the Town Center. We hit up JC Penney. Been there lately? Such cute stuff. Remember when it was only "old lady" stuff? Not anymore. They must have gotten some young buyers. Too cute. I bought Macy some new stuff. We then went to Old Navy, Ross, Bed, Bath and Beyond, Hobby Lobby, and Dollar Tree. We were soooo tired by the time we headed home. Macy and I rented Hairspray on PPV. It was soooooo cute. We really enjoyed it. I was thankful to get to watch a movie with her. What a treat. She stayed home with us this weekend because Darin was in a lot of pain from an unexplained muscle pull/strain/possible break of his collar bone, etc. He FINALLY headed to the ER this morning. I was scheduled to give the Children's message at church today and had to step in at the last minute as liturgist. Macy spoke up during prayer requests and asked if everyone would pray for her Dad. I was so proud of her. We're at home right now and headed out the door for a birthday party at Lunar golf. My kids are excited.

I really need to do all the paperwork at school this week that I should have been doing last week when I was in the kitchen. This will be our first full week since Christmas, so I'm sure we'll be very busy with lots of kids returning from their break. OH, and I just remembered I get to drive the bus tomorrow. Always something when you wear all those hats. I'm tired just thinking about it.

Tonight I need to catch up on laundry and emails....Maybe Chris will be home before 9 p.m. That would help...

Until the next time the urge hits me to vent......good bye my dear bloggy.

Vandalism

This just tops my day off with a cherry on top. I got a call from my two closing employees at 5:52 that there were a couple boys on the playground with spray paint. They wanted to know if I wanted them to leave, I told them no, to call the police. So they did. The kids had vandalized our entire playground with spray paint. Obsenities are now all the way down the slide. These were 10 year old boys. Filth. So, we waited over an hour for the police to come and when they did...I was given this option. Make a criminal complaint and set them on the path of "the system" from here on out or go over and talk to them and "make a deal" so they are responsible with cleaning it up. UGH. I hate being a grown up. So, I went inside and called the ex-police chief that also goes to our church. He advised me to make the deal and not press criminal charges. So, the officer and I went over and spoke to the boys. HOW DISRESPECTFUL. If I had spoken to them before I had made this decision, I probably would have pressed charges. So sad. I felt bad for their grandmother. He cursed in front of me. He just didn't care. It was so cold in their house you could see your breath when you talked. So sad to me. I told them that they have to be there at 10 a.m. in the morning and clean up the mess. We'll see if they show up. Tonight, speaking to these 10 year old boys I felt like I was actually looking into the eyes of a 20 something hardened criminal. They didn't care what I had to say. I have a daughter the same age that would be in tears if I spoke to her the way I spoke to them. The officer said that he wished he had not given me the option of pressing charges or making the deal after he spoke to them. He told them that next time he saw them out after 8 or heard anything about them doing this somewhere else that they would be headed to jail. How sad. I really hope that I made the right call. I really do. And that is the end of my eventful day. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Over 140 people served....

Today we cooked (Me and another employee) for 55 kids at breakfast, 55 kids at lunch and 30 senior citizens for their Thursday luncheon at the church. And just let me say this...I'm tired. AND Tommy Bahama Red Leather loafers are not the shoes to be wearing if you're cooking. That's all.

Macy is at her friends house as we speak in 30 degree weather in the "hot tub." I didn't even argue. I said, "you're going to get sick, but go right ahead." The way I look at it, it's one less child to yell at tonight. Just kidding. (But, seriously!).

Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday. Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you for Fridays!!!

My friend Vegas.

I have this friend...I call her Vegas. She calls me Vegas. (We met on a plane to Vegas). I love her with all my heart. She has been my friend since July 4, 2002. I can tell her anything and she doesn't judge me. She is having her first baby in February. A while back I sent an email to my Mom that was sent between her sister and I and I said some not so nice things because I was mad that I couldn't be included in her baby shower hosting. (So juvenile of me). So, my Mom replied to ALL with her outspoken view on the whole subject!! How embarrassing. So things have been strained between the two of us since then. We haven't spoken a lot since then (like October). But, we never went THERE with the conversation when we did talk. I knew that she knew and she knew that I knew that she was pissed and I was pissed, etc. Sooooooo, anyway.....she called tonight and I just told her that I loved her and that I didn't want to make 5 years of an awesome friendship go away because I was a brat. I do love her. Her shower is next Saturday and I am now going to go. I soooo adore her. I can't wait to shop for her new baby. I'm excited. Isn't it crazy that I'm almost 32 and sometimes I still feel like a high school girl? So stupid. That was the highlight of my day.

OOOOOOOhhhhhh, and I finally went to the podiatrist for my gross toenail. Ick. I will not go into the details, but most of the toenail is now gone and I have to go back in a month. Macy refused to watch. I don't blame her. It was pretty gross. And did anyone know how expensive Betadine is? Oh my gosh. So expensive.

I got to cook for 60+ kids today. Our cook called in sick. At 6:19. Lovely.

My kids are in rare form tonight. I drove to Wal Mart, bought everything for a yummy Frito chili pie and they want donuts, chocolate and fruit loops. Lovely. Why do I even bother.

My four days of rest have just gone down the drain with one evening at home with them. Chris had to work on his day off. He has to work every day this week. I may get to see him on Saturday. Sometimes I think we're just passing through life trading car seats. We had another night with two kids in our bed until he just moved to Mason's bed. Can you just see big ole' Chris in a twin bed?

I wish that I had more interesting things to say. But, I don't. Sorry.

Happy New Year!

2008...I wonder what this year will bring. Last year brought a career change for me. It brought us back into the Chili's family...(Thank goodness)! It brought Chris and I to the 5 year mark in our marriage. Macy turned a decade old. I spent a couple days in the hospital with Maddy. Mason started preschool. It was a pretty eventful year. I'm sure this year will find us busier than ever. Macy has decided not to compete in a Spring sport-(only Softball in March). But, our Mr. Man will be joining the ranks of team sports. YEA! We are very excited. He turns 4 in February and we get to sign him up for soccer. We are so excited about this. I'm not sure this will be his sport of choice, but he sure can run and I can't wait to go and watch him. Maddy will have to just be the cheerleader for a couple more years. She's something else!

I look forward to watching my children continue to learn and grow. I can't wait to get in shape! (Believe it or not)! I am so excited about our trip to California. We have started "planning." We've decided this...it's going to cost an arm and a leg, but we're blessed to be able to go. We want to work on the house some. We considered sending Macy to summer camp in Kerrville, but she will be going in 2008 with her 5th grade class, so I think we'll hold off until next Summer.

My goal more than anything this year....(I refuse to say resolution...) is to get my butt organized. I used to be so on top of things and then I had two kids two years in a row and started working 60+ hours a week and I just couldn't keep up. I'm working better hours now, so I think I can work it out. I have some amazing ladies at the church that have volunteered to help me organize my desk and files and I have taken them up on it! I hired a spectacular lady to clean my house every two weeks and that has been such a blessing!

More than anything, I pray for everyone to have good health and a great year!