hmmpppfff!!

Some people. Just beware of people who are stalker-like......They copy every move you make, want to be you, act like your best friend, all the while they would love to see you go down in failure. Watch out people!! They exist. Very interesting....very interesting. I love when people are so innocent and just drop tid bits of information for me to pick up on and then I figure it all out. People are mental. Seriously nut jobs....Okay....that's all for now. Book a trip to Vegas....they book a trip to Vegas...Talk about buying an iPhone...they're going to get one first.....been on a board for two years....hhhmmmm....they join. All the while, bad mouthing me and the job that I'm doing at my preschool that you go on and on and on about how great a job I'm doing. I see. I get it. You can copy me all you want. I'm not in junior high school anymore. What did they used to say when I was in the sorority....imitation is the greatest form of flattery. Yeah whatever. Just remember you can try to be me, but you will never BE me!!!

I'm really done now. I promise. I hate girl drama.

My bub....

Yesterday was opening day for softball. It was a yucky day, misty, humid, cold, yuck....Macy has been battling these stomach cramps since Thursday and right before the game she ate...It didn't set well with her. She was in the dug out bawling before the game. They had to scrub her from the lineup. I was so sad. She was so sad. She felt like she was disappointing me, her dad, Topher, her team, everyone. She really didn't feel good. But, she wanted to stay and watch the game. So, she did. They put in a replacement catcher. First couple girls up and the girl got hurt by our pitcher who has an ARM!! My hero, Macy Clum...sucked it up and went out there and saved the day! I was so proud of her. She got two hits. She brought a girl home. She was awesome!! I love her!!

Yesterday was also my favorite garage sale in the world in Richardson. I love it. I got Maddy a ton of clothes, not so much to pick from for Mason.

Other than that, life is good. I'm busy getting ready for our church garage sale, a personal garage sale, busy with tapes and organizing and purging my life of "stuff" I don't need. I have enough gift bags to give an entire school full of classrooms each a gift. I have too much stuff. I feel more clear headed when I throw things away! I love that feeling!! I'm getting rid of my stacks. I stack entirely too much. Way too much. Here's to Spring Cleaning. I love it!!

Good news, bad news....

So, which do you want first. I hate that question....

Okay, BAD news. Heating/AC unit is broken. Apparently it is 25 years old. Lovely. Bad news. $1500.00 AT LEAST. More bad news. That's how much I was planning on spending on our plane tickets to California. UGH!

Good news. I just invoiced my dictation for the month.....$933.62.

GOD IS GOOD...ALL THE TIME!!!

Soooo, get this....

My sister....whom I have not spoken to since last year because of a ton of things....See previous posts.....contacts my EX husband this week and asks if she can see Macy on one of HIS weekends. Um, don't remember signing a custody agreement with her. See, she is getting married for the fourth time (she's 30). Never, in my children's life has she brought the same male to Christmas two years in a row. Explain that to your kids. Explain that to her kids. I'm totally shocked by her boldness here. She sent him a long and drawn out email explaining how everything was my fault, how my brother and I were my Mom's favorites, blah, blah, blah. Hhhhhhhm, how about some self reflection time? Is it just me? No. She's not talking to my Mom, my Dad, my brother, my grandmother...Like I told my Dad...she's an equal opportunity hater. She wants to paint a poor me picture because no one will be at her wedding. WAAAA!!! I have not been to any of her weddings. I was never invited. I remember telling my EX husband when she married the first time (two weeks after he and I got engaged) in a quickie wedding in Vegas that I wasn't really sad about missing it because I knew it wouldn't be her last wedding and boy was I right. She was just trying to beat me to the altar. Hope she had a fun race. The sad part of all of this is....she is my sister. I love her because she is my sister. I miss my nieces. But, in all honesty, she is not someone that would be a part of my life by choice. Meaning, if she were someone that I met socially in my community, she would not be a friend of choice. We are 15 months apart. We have the same Mom, same Dad, grew up with the same set of rules, circumstances....But, at some point she took one path and I took another. I was in LOVE with school. I excelled because I wanted to. She barely made it through. She had a child her senior year in high school. I was too busy with important things in high school like UIL and scholarship forms and college applications to think about having a BABY! I love church. She makes fun of me for it. (or has in the past). The thing that she doesn't get...I guess in contacting my EX husband is that even though there is an EX in front of it....he is still my friend. He is not my EX friend. He is my friend. He is my confidant. We are raising a beautiful child together. We did not make it together, but we certainly have made it as parents together. I am blown away by the line that she crossed on this one. I guess because she doesn't get along with her ex husbands than she thinks that I don't either. Well, wasn't she mistaken on this one?????? Definitely!! Now, I sit back and think about whether I ignore her latest move or call her on it. I'm not sure it's worth my energy!

Here's the way I see it...

I need to learn that sometimes there are valleys and sometimes there are peaks and that threatening divorce is not always the way to solve the problem. I grew up in a home that divorce was the solution. It was the answer to all questions. I don't want it to be my answer until I exhaust all other resources....THERE. I SAID IT.

It is Good Friday. We had an amazing Easter Egg Hunt today at the school. It was great! We probably had over 100 people there.

I worked outside in my yard for a good five hours this afternoon. We loaded the whole back end of Chris' truck with JUNK. I am trying to free my life of clutter. I just want to have calmness in my home. Less stuff!

I am going to call my doctor Monday. I think I need something to help with my moods. I'm not sleeping at night. I'm grumpy. I have anxiety. SAY PRAYERS FOR ME!! I am sad. I don't know how else to say it. I'M SAD. I am a person who is surrounded by so many amazing people, but I still feel alone. I don't like being the boss. Because being the boss means that I can't be every ones friend and I like being every ones friend. I don't like being grumpy. I just want to make cupcakes and make other people happy for a living. Is that possible?

Oh, and my sweet Bubba---my boy Bubba at school came back. I want to take him home with me. His Mom got out of jail, they moved to a halfway house and she got kicked out, so he's back at home with his Granny and Granny can't really handle him right now. I want to bring him home. I want to make sure that Chris and I get through this valley before I bring another child into our home, but I am seriously considering it. We are going to take him to Day out with Thomas with us in two weeks. He will have a blast. He is a child that really has transformed my life in a year. He is the only child-that is not a biological child that I have EVER loved like I love my other children. I believe that he is MINE!! At some point, I will write an entire blog on my Bubba...my love....

Good night dear readers...all five of you! God is good...ALL THE TIME!

Still alive....

I'm surviving. I'm busy with work and school and kids and softball and life. Praying that I will be hit between the eyes with the answers that I'm seeking. Life sucks sometimes. As easy as I think it would be to throw in the towel, I think that sometimes there are hard times that we need to get through. Now, here's the thing, I'm trudged through my fair share of lows. I've been married and divorced once before, remember? It sucks. I worry for my kids. I seriously don't care if I'm single the rest of my life. I want my kids to have a Dad in their life. I guess it's so important to me because I didn't have my Dad involved in my life. It was rough. I didn't realize how rough until I became an adult. And it was rough for my Dad. So, that's that. Moving right along.....

So much to say...

But, I'm too damn tired. Had a really rough time lately. Things at work at looking up. Things at home aren't. That's all I'm going to say. That, and lift me up in your prayers. And my kids. My kids are my life. They are my everything. Normally I would not talk about such a personal subject, but I need some support right now. To my friends who know what's going on, like Kristy-Thank you for your kind words, hugs, smile today at lunch! I love you!! I know we'll get through this. It just sucks!! God is giving me strength and so are my M's. Macy, Mason, Maddy and Mommy!!!

Wowee!

It's been a long time since we last talked. It's been a roller coaster. I will not use this time or space to complain or be negative. I will be positive. Things are going well. I am trying to be more positive. I hired a new cook today, the last one just stopped showing up. I had two people call me out of no where today for a preschool job. Can I just say that....God answers prayers. Just so you know this to be fact, it happens. It has happened to me this week.

Let me tell you about my AWESOME weekend. Start with Friday. Chris gave me $60.00 to get my car cleaned. That was the best thing ever. Got my carpets shampooed. Car was so clean! Took two hours, but it was spotless. I got to see my best friend Kathryn AKA Khaki on Friday night. We met in Rockwall. We had a yummy kid-free dinner with beverages at Salt Grass. We went to see my Mom at Target. We went to Borders Books at 10 o'clock at night. WOW. I'm usually way asleep by then. We woke up and made our way to Canton on Saturday morning. We had a blast. I think the highlight of the trip was the sausage on a stick and the tater twisters. YUMMY! We spent some money, got cute rhinestone covered CANTON shirts and headed home. We had another delicious meal on Saturday night with my baby brother Jake at Pappadeaux. Kathryn had not seen my brother since he was like 12....he's 21 now. So cool. We went and saw Penelope. Seriously $9.00 a piece for a movie that SUCKED!! Kathryn headed home on Sunday and so did I. Mason has another sinus infection, so Chris had to take him to the doctor on Saturday morning. He's feeling better now.

I've had another trying week. God tests me daily. I hope that I'm satisfying him with my decisions. I really do. I try hard. I pray daily. I learn that everyday people will disappoint you and then out of no where someone will knock you on your butt with love. I have a "new" teacher that just amazes me everyday with her ability to be positive and sweet and wonderful. She taught the kids...hips and lips. Finger over your lips and hand on your hip. The sashay down the hall and I LOVE TO WATCH! They are sooooo cute!

Planning is still underway for our trip to Disneyland. We are excited. We have booked our hotel to Vegas in April, too. So much to do in so little time!!I need to get to bed!!

It's supposed to snow again tomorrow. I'll post some pictures this weekend!!