Mom versus Dad....

Okay, I screwed up. Big time. This will include a huge back story of which the details may be a little bit out of order. I was born to a Mom and a Dad. They had me when they were both 20. (Had gotten married at 18). I saw my Dad until I was 5. At which time, I was adopted by my stepfather who raised me until he and my Mom were divorced when I was a sophomore in high school. At this point, my REAL DAD came back into our lives and my parents tried to reconcile. Didn't work. Back to California my Dad went. My Mom then met my stepdad that she was married to until a few years ago and is now living with again, but not married to. I think. Anyway....a few years back my Dad contacted me again. We had been in and out of touch for years. Actually for a lot of different reasons, my anger, his absence just because, etc. So, we finally reconnected after the birth of my son and things have been going well since. Well, except that I was lying to my Mom the entire time about the relationship. I was "protecting" her. I didn't want her to think I loved her any less because I loved my father. Crazy, I know. She didn't know I went to California for 14 days to see my Dad. My children were told to sssshhhhhh...keep quiet. (I know!! I'm an awful mother). My kids LOVE my Dad. He is the best "Grandpal." I didn't want her to be hurt.

Well, this Saturday I sent a picture of Maddy to my Mom and my Dad in the SAME TEXT!! Somehow my Dad replied to all with the comment of...Kitty Kat (Maddy's nickname) looks like you did at that age and a perfect mix of you and your Mom. A sweet comment. But, my Mom somehow wasn't impressed. So, she forwarded me his message...as if to say....I know. She will now not return my texts, phone calls, Macy's phone calls, etc. I have decided that she will need time to deal with this. I cannot apologize for loving my Dad any longer. I love him. I didn't pick him...she did. I'm sorry that she is hurt by him. I'm sorry that he screwed up. But, he's my Dad. And that's obviously not changing.

So, that's the story...any advice???

The bad KAT!

This cute little girl is the reason that I'm going gray at 33.



She is also the reason Chris is going bald at 33.



Because as cute as she is and as much as everyone ooohhhsss and awwwwwwwss over her...she will give Chris and I a run for our money more than all our kids combined!! She is something else. And we love her...very, very, very much. She is also the reason I will never...I repeat never...have another child. If she had been my first she would have been my last!!!

Trust and knowing who your friends are....

I have always been "green." So green that in high school my boyfriend referred to someone else as green and I asked what that meant. I am naive to a fault. Sometimes I think it is a great feature to have and other times I think it is a fault. I found out today by accident that since December I was being lied to by three people that I had the utmost respect for and confidence in. The type of people that "had my back." When actually, the whole time they were undermining me. I don't get it. As much as I am moving forward with my life, it's hard not to reflect and think about what I could have done, what I should have done....etc, etc. With all of that being said, I am happier than I have been in years. I am so good. I love my kids. I even love my husband a little more these days. I feel "carefree." In the last two weeks Chris and I have talked more, laughed more, spent more time together...

Last weekend was our trip to Houston. This weekend our friends the Mann's stayed with us two nights. We ate out and had a great time!! I love Misty. We can't wait for the Summer to come so we can head to Paris and swim with the kids!

In closing, I really want everyone to know that I am so grateful for my friends. I have better friends than I ever knew could exist. Friends that really do "have my back." Without naming real names....The B's, The G's, The D's, The S's, The S's, The S's, The E's, The S's, The T's, The M's and the B's. These families and friends have rallied around me like I never expected. They have loved me, they have helped me, they are so supportive. I am beyond blessed!!

My fellow blog sister....

Corey asked me to post a link to her site.....She is an inspiration to all who know her and to those who think they do!! :) She is one of my favorite people!!! She rocks!!

Hope you can help her out...I will be!!

Hhhmmmm....

So much to say. I went to see my Mom this weekend. We had the best time. Lots of bargain shopping...lots of laughing.

Started my Monday out with a very happy disposition and then I got an email that upset me. I love email. I would rather use email. But, sometimes it just sucks. I can't tell whether this email intended to sound as ugly as it did, so I had a friend read it. She said....delete it. That person is not your friend. Which makes me sad. Very sad. I could explain and explain, but I just want to move on. So, I am.

I'll post some pictures of my kids later. We are gearing up for a big night of Dancing with the Stars. I didn't watch last season, but I'm excited about this seasons cast....AND now I have the time to watch it, which is even better.

Have a great week. I'll try to post pics tomorrow!!

Fancy Nancy....

Macy's school has this awesome day every year where the kids dress as their favorite book characters....

This year she chose...Fancy Nancy....Another one of my favorites was Choclatina...She's so silly!!!

No words...only smiles....

Have I mentioned that I have the MOST amazing girlfriends ever?

I gained weight!

I'm just putting it out there for the world (5 people who read this blog) to see. I gained .8 of a pound this week. That is point eight. Not quite a pound. I also ate brisket, baked beans, LOTS of potato salad, two cheeseburgers from McDonalds and a Large french fry, 3 margaritas....and I'm sure so much more than I'm remembering the past four days. My friend Shannon suggested I just write in my WW journal....BLEW IT!! Okay, so...I start over today.

And I have so much more to tell you...I'm doing GREAT. I'm happy. Clear headed. Things are going wonderfully around here.

We are all going to Houston this weekend to see my MOM. I'm excited.

Will post pictures soon of what I did this weekend!! You will be amazed!!